Saturday, May 05, 2007

Unloading thoughts

1) When will I figure out what I want to be when I grow up? Mr. Gaia has suggested I look into a master's of biology which is probably offered online. I know I would enjoy the classes, etc, but what would I do with it?

2) Mr. Gaia has found an online degree program he thinks would be great for him - $50,000 plus he would have to travel to the school 2-3x year. Part of me thinks "it's only money" the other part of me thinks "we have 2 kids who will start college 10-12 years from now, if we take on this debt now (and this is almost as much as our first mortgage) how will we possibly help them with their education?"

3) I get a solar oven and we finally get rain. I'm not saying the two events are connected, you understand, but it does stand to reason that our unrelentingly sunny days would suddenly become cloudy days as soon as I need/want sun.

4) Mr. Gaia and I have been married 12 years now. That's a really long time. I'll bet a lot of people are surprised that we're still married (okay, sometimes I am too). We clashed a lot at the beginning as we figured out our respective roles, and we're still working on what roles we play in the partnership, but I think we're probably happier for having hashed out our expectations and desires.

5) I'm tired of my negative self image with my body. I have a healthy weight. Yes, I have some fat around my belly, but some of it is loose skin from carrying big babies. But why did I have to be afflicted with cellulite even when I'm at my thinnest (and have a BMI that sends up alarm bells)?

6) The preacher's wife is "full term" now. She's hit 38 weeks and her OB is pressuring her to have an induction. As uncomfortable as she is (and she is) she's holding strong with the "are my babies okay? Am I okay?" line.

7) My blog's google hits mostly come from people asking "is Michelle Duggar pregnant again?" Well, this is the best source I can find. Their family website is very bare and doesn't say anything at all. Supposedly the new baby (babies?) is (are?) due July 27.

8) Things have been quiet in Bug Hill lately. We're all mostly waiting for the preacher's wife to have her twins. The knitting needles have been flying and the babies have more things than they can ever need - especially in our current heat.

9) While things have been quiet, there was a minor excitement 2 weeks ago in our office. Megan, our office assistant (for lack of a better title) took a pregnancy test at work (this one boggled my mind) and then proceeded to announce her positive result to everyone. She then hared off to Planned Parenthood (I'm still amazed we have a chapter here) and took another test and got prenatal vitamins, etc. She's about 7 weeks now. Geez, I actively denied my pregnancy at work until I was about 15 weeks along and hiding it was getting difficult. She's embraced her pregnancy - she's called in sick several times - once for excessive nausea and once for swollen feet. If she thinks her feet are swollen now, well, it's going to be a loooooong 33 weeks.


Tanya Brown said...

I'm almost 43. I still haven't figured out what I want to be when I grow up, so I wish you luck in that regard. I have noticed, though, that almost nothing I've done has been "wasted", even some things that I thought were a dead loss at the time.

You've mentioned becoming a Certified Arborist and a few other goals. Would studying biology interfere with those goals, complement them, or neither of the above? How would it fit in with the rest of your life? If you started the program and then decided that you didn't care for it, would you be comfortable leaving it unfinished?

(Don't feel obliged to respond to these questions unless you just want to.)

It isn't the same situation at all, but I once spent about five years dreading finishing a degree. Finally one day I realized that if I'd just taken a class here and there, I'd have had the degree and the dread over.

The point of that is that time continues to drift by whether or not we do anything, whether we find the "perfect" thing that fulfills us or not. There may not be any one thing that you want to do with your life. There may be a bunch of different things, either in succession or at the same time. Your life may be more like a casserole with many different ingredients than a single entree plopped on a plate.

By the way - I tagged you for the Thinking Blogger award. Please don't feel like you have to deal with it if you're really busy, though.

Gaia said...

I'm not ignoring you, I'm thinking on it (no pun intended).